TEACHINGS OF THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE.
I have finally found out and discovered the true meanings of these words in the English Language...This is adapted and taken from Pages 302,1200 and 229 of Longman Dictionary of Contemporary English.The Complete Guide to Written and Spoken English.(New Edition)Longman Corpus Network by the British National Corpus.Here is the meaning of the following six words I checked and looked up...You may choose to disagree or agree.It is a personal choice.I am NOT going to force and compel anyone.Thank you very much...
(1) "Convert":To change or make something change from one form,system or purpose to a different one.(Examples:This is part of the process of converting iron into steel.The whole office converted to a new computer system last year.Our house is a converted barn.)To be able to be changed from one object into another.(Examples:This sofa converts to a bed.I cannot see how this plastic sheet converts into a tent.)To change or make someone change their opinion or habit.(Examples:I have converted to decaffeinated coffee.My daughter has finally converted me to Guns "n" Roses.)To change or make someone change from one religion or belief to another.(Example:Anne has converted to Islam recently.)
Alternate Version of the meaning/s of the word "convert":Someone who has been persuaded to change their opinion and accept a particular religion or belief:a convert to Christianity.)
(2)Christian:A person who believes in the ideas taught by Jesus Christ or belongs to a Christian church.(informal:a good person)Believing the ideas taught by Jesus Christ or belonging to a Christian church:Christian ministers.Based on the ideas taught by Jesus Christ:Christian doctrine.Also Christian is behaving in a good and kind way.(Example:Laughing at his misfortune was not a very good Christian act.)
(3) Christianity:The RELIGION based on the life and teachings of Jesus Christ.
(4)Religion:People's belief in the life of the spirit and usually in one or more Gods:The theme was the relationship between religion and literature.GET RELIGION informal:suddenly become interested in religion in a way that seems strange to other people.He got religion in a big way when he was at college.Also a particular system of this belief and all the ways of expressing your love for your God,ceremonies and duties that are connected with it:Islam and Buddhism are two of the great religions of the world./the Christian religion/practise a religion is to take part in the ceremonies and obey the rules of a religion.Singular:an activity or area of interest which is extremely or unreasonably important in your life.(Example:Football was a religion in my family.)
(5) Religious:Connected with religion in general or with a particular religion.(Example/s:I do not go along with her religious beliefs/ or a religious ceremony.)Believing strongly in your religion and obeying its rules carefully too.(A deeply religious person).
(6) Religiously:If you do something religiously,you are always very careful to do it in its adverb form.(Example:I was religiously following all the instructions.)It is also in a way which is connected with and that is connected with religion.
I personally disagree with some of the explanations above.I am very frank and open here.I feel that religion is a very sensitive and serious issue.But,religion is a relationship with God most of the time and our spiritual walk with HIM.If religion is the solution to all the problems in our life/s and lives and problems in this world,then why is the wrold still in a very horrible state today?Just sit down and think and ponder for a moment.I will not comment much and add further.You may have different opinions.Feel free to express it here.Thanks...
I AM REALLY VERY HURT,CONFUSED AND VERY TIRED OF LIVING ON THIS EARTH...
I am just so very hurt,offended,upset and really very confused at this point in my life...I just feel that living on this Earth is worthless and pointless sometimes.I am just very sick and tired of living on this Earth.I wished I was a monk or priest and lead a simple life like them.If I have the option to choose who I want to live with really,I say this from the bottom of my heart that I only want to live and have a relationship with God;Jesus Christ hopefully...
I am very upset and confused now.Am I making or have I made big and trivial mistakes in life?Must I listen to all others say and be influenced by them?Why can't I listen to myself and be myself sometimes?I is very hard for me...I really wonder at many occasions...Is this the true "Prem" OR IS THERE another side of Prem which cannot be shown out so easily,openly,freely and without any interruptions from the external world???Why must there be so many problems and hiccups in my life?Am I born to create problems?Did God create me to be a sinner all my life?Why can't some people accept my decision that I have accepted Christ in my life?Is is so hard for them?Ask them to be in my shoes and be put in my situation!!Who are they to question me the true meaning of "accepting Christ"??How am I to make them understand?Am I obliged to answer every single question thrown to me??Why must they keep using the word "convert" religion to explain things to me??Why do they keep asking me the meaning of "to fully accept Christ"??
If I got the opportunity,I wish I led a life like Jesus Christ all my life and be born as a Christian and understand the trials and tribulations they encounter just like what I am undergoing currently...
I really do not know where I am heading in life...I just feel like giving up and ending my life now,really...What is the point of living to hurt people,especially my mum and my parents and hurt and irritate others??I think I really ought to go to a psychiatrist and examine myself throughly.I think and it looks like I will go MAD very soon!!!I am just sick and too exhausted of living on this Earth!!!
I am aware some people care for me,think for and of me and also remember me too regardless of little I meet them...I really appreciate it.Thank you very much from the bottom of my heart.I also sincerely like to thank a very special person in my life.I am very thankful I got to know him.He is Mr Jason Ng;Mr Sonix.I do not know you pray for me everyday without fail until somebody told me last week.I was very touched when I heard this statement from that person...I really appreciate it and will never forget it!!You have become a very special person in and part of my life now...
Jason,I am glad you understand everything happening around me.I will not say about it here as others visit and read the posts in my blog.But,you do know what I am referring to,talking about and driving at;right??I hope you do...Like you always say and I also believe in it that "it will all work out if you trust God".It is very easy to be said in words,but very difficult and painstaking by actions.Thank you for respecting my decision.I feel I am making and made a very hasty decision too.I need some time to reconsider again...Whatever I say are not truly from my heart from all the SMS's you received from me so far.That is NOT my true heart...My true heart,feelings,emotions and words are what you saw yesterday when we sat down,spoke,chatted and really discussed about the whole matter.I am a very emotional person at times,but not seen by many people many times...I hide it and cover it up.Different masks are covering me now and you know my true FACE yesterday.That is me;the true "Prem"!!I SWEAT UPON GOD RIGHT NOW!!!
Yes,I believe that the bible says that "those who go through trials and tribulations will carry the glory of God".I do not deny it.It is a fact.Yes,one side of me tells me that I am going to carry that glory which is why I am facing challengs,obstacles from my parents,self etc.Yes,it is normal.We experience and we overcome.If I am firm,I can also.But,the question is "HOW"??What am I to do now??It is not entirely my parents,but also my attitude,relationship and approach towards God to know him better.It is me;I feel like I am mistreating God and shunning away from my life off and on...He is always there,waiting for me at his doorstep.But,I just keep washing him off and on.What am I to do?Has some devil or evil spirit entered into me and brought my life to this state today??I cannot do things based on my emotions.But,something prompts me to do this always;quite often at least.Why?Just tell me why...Please answer me,God.Speak to me,God and please help me to live a better life!!!I beg you...I really need someone to be there for me always!!!
I have to do what is right.But,I do not know what I am doing is right very often.God,please come into me.I beg you...!!!Please give me the strength,courage and free will to make a very good decision.Thanks...Please bless me.I have the bible with me,but I cannot use it and read it openly.Please show me a way out.I beg you and kneel down on my feet right now and pray to you as I type this message to you!!!
I have experienced God and felt him myself a few days ago.His name is Jesus Christ.I am very proud to say his and your name.You really spoke to me and showed you cared for me on Tuesday,14th February(Valentine's Day).Prayer meeting on this special day in City Harvest Church at the old and previous premises of Jurong West Street 91;really had some impact on me that very night.Even so,right right now as I type this message in my blog.I am glad I attended although my special friend could not be with me;beside me at least.I understand his situation and God does too.That night was a very good and real eye-opener to and for me.I have seen and heard of miracles occur in City Harvest Chirch;but things actually do happen.It is true as I was shaken myself.I was very surprised,shocked and could not believe what was happening to me myself.I was wondering if I was myself for a moment.w143,Jason Chong,and the people surrounding me on my left;right;front;middle;behind me and the usher nest to me saw what was happening to and in me with their own very two eyes!!I do not know if my speciaL friend noticed it;Maybe;he was very busy then.But,I must admit the truth that prayer meeting that night made me less confused,at ease and touched me to some extent.Does anyone have anything to say,comment or add?I will share my whole experience during prayer meeting that night here now.The beginning portion of praise and worship were okay and alright to me.Nothing happened to me then,until worship time and prayer times along the way.I do not know if I was seeing or saw something,but I just closed my eyes and prayed.I also knelt or kneeled ratherand prayed and praised and worshipped at many occasions and instances.Many were looking and admired and were touched by me and my feelings and my actions and my emotions.I could tell as it was very OBVIOUS for all to see!!I guess,at least.My whole heart just felt like overflowing and bursting out.I tried to control myself,but was unable to!!I just began to burst into tears and could not control myself.My hands were shivering;my body began to sweat and water came and trickled out.My cheeks were filled with tears and I began perspiring.I began to feel weak,numb and tired.I was about to fall down thrice as I lost grip of myself.I a, serious!!My body began to feel hot and I was sick then and felt that my sickness was going away slowly.I think I felt God's presence and he was there right before me!!
I think I have made a very hasty decision and made my mind recklessly on Thursday night.Nobody is forcing me and cannot disagree with me as it is my life and how I want my future to be!!I will NOT stop going to City Harvest Church.But,please understand something.Because of the tight fix I am in now,I will feel like coming and going if I have the time.Please do not be unhappy with it!!I will NOT stop coming totally!!It is a great place to be in,really...I will also NOT backslide and completely back out from W143 in City Harvest Church.Nobody is asking to convert and converted me to a Christian!!I am very clear about this now.Thta is not the main aim and what others are doing.They have the right mindset/s and clear thought/s in their mind/s...I will still keep the Bible given to me by someone.BUT,I will lock it up somewhere.I feel that people are asking me to stop certain things for 23 years I have lived in this world.It is so easy as they think...I cannot just drop and stop going to temple/s and drop all other commitments??If I ask them to come to a Hindu temple,will they come or go?No,right.The same goes and applies for and to me.Just be in my shoes and you will realise and know what I am undergoing and suffering now!!I have said this before;but I reinterate ONCE again.I am born as a Hindu,live as a Hindu and die as a Hindu.Nobody in my family has ever converted from one religion to another(ie:Hindu to a Christian and so on and so forth).I feel that talking to all my relatives and most importantly,my parents on Thursday night is a waste of time.I am not going to talk to any more people about this issue EVER again!!!I swear upon God!!All know the TRUTH and I have faced up to telling them the "TRUTH"!!They are aware and sensed I am giving them lame,false,funny and other reasons and excuses I go out,but spend my time in chrch instead.Everybody I spoke to is very frustrated,serious,upset and hurt over this whole matter!!They have threatened to chase me out of my house and disown me if I continue the way I am now.Half my time in church and very little time with my family.What happens or will happen if I am asked to baptise one day??Am I supposed to drop everything?Won't it affect me and other loved ones surrounding me??Just sit down and think.I know how great Christ is and works he does and has done.I am not denying this,but why do most Christians invite others to church and try to convert them?Are we supposed to follow them blindly and listen to what they say?Then,I am a fanatic and am doing thing rashly,foolishly,recklessly,hesitantly and hurriedly!!I have asked to say this from a Christian I know as he is a pure Christian.But,I am not referring to him.Please do not get the wrong impression,dude.Thanks.Have or people trying to do what they are doing to others and brainwash them??This is NOT one aspect of a true friendship with someone!!!I am very stressed and confused about this whole matter the entire week.My actions and words explain it all for those who know me very well inside out!!I still treasure some people as my good and best friends,really!!But,please refrian from talking to me about religion.I am telling everyone reading this now...It is very serious and sensitive.I am sorry to have hurt,offended,upsetand irritated this special person but it is a fact of life.You have to accept it,dude.I am slowly learning to accept it too.Please,I beg you...Thanks...I have nothing more to say to this special person...
I am not saying and here to say I do not trst God!!I do,but there are other ways to know and experience God.Christianity is one of the way/s only.I wil slowly cut down and go less often for my spiritual sessions on weekends.I rarely have time with my family.My whole week is oacked,full,congested and occupied.People have seen for themselves and know it.I have had very little time to rest this whole weel.Thinking about my life for my future,my spiritual walk and realtionship with God etc...Temple is my place of worship.It cannot be neglected so easily...
Take care,everyone and God Bless You All!!
